I’ve spent too many days believing the lie that God had somehow forgotten about me.
My story has been a story of waiting. And friend, I feel like I’ve been waiting for a long time. Waiting to see and experience the promises God has made me and to live out what He has placed in my heart.
There have been seasons and moments in my waiting when I have felt let down, set aside and forgotten.
Moments when it seemed like life was passing me by and everyone around me seemed to be “living their best life.”
I fell into the comparison trap over and over again and… again.
I used to quote things like, “Destiny isn’t a destination but a journey.” But, let me tell you, I was looking for my destination.
It left me frustrated, and feeling like I had missed my moment.
Eventhough I am explaining it in past tense, I’d be naive to think I have conquered all of it. And although I have my whole life to continue to grow in my understanding of God, I can say that I am learning to trust the Lord more and more everyday.
I had a moment this past week that resulted in an overwhelming sense of gratitude that gripped my heart. A feeling I haven’t been able to shake.
I was talking to a friend about the things that I am currently overseeing/doing and how a lot of them aren’t things that are my passion or what I really want to be doing. Yet, God hasn’t released me from them.
As I uttered those words, “God hasn’t released me from them, yet…” I experienced so much peace. No longer seeing it as purgatory to my promise, but as divine preparation, entrusted to me by my Heavenly Father, gratitude gripped my heart.
Believing that God has you front and center and believing that He has a plan for you changes everything.
You have not been left in this season but you have been planted-to bear fruit, to grow and to bring you closer to what’s in your heart.
Today more than ever, I believe that my right here and right now is exactly what He has for me. I believe the same for you.
“Perhaps, you were born for such a time as this.” Esther 4:14